Everyone Must Take Good Care of Ourselves

Life is so unpredictable. Elaine, someone always so cheerful, sporty & healthy, yet fall so sick suddenly. Everyone's shocked. Everyone's worried. Really hope everything will be fine & we can see more beautiful Saltplay creations at MAAD soon...

Wednesday. As usual, a long day. Went to have lesson with the Taiwanese couple, ended up telling them about Singapore Education System, explaining PSLE & the process of choosing a secondary school for their daugther. Felt very bad so told them it should not be considered a lesson, but they are so very nice, as usual, & said that they would also like to learn more about Singapore from me, hence we were having a lesson too. How understanding & sweet. :)

Went to visit Elaine. She was sleeping when I arrived. Thought will just leave her a note & not wake her, but she woke up while I was digging into my bag for paper :P She looked better, but she complains of being VERY tired all the time. She's been sleeping a lot, & still very bloated & no appetite. At least she's joking a little, that's a good sign...

Walked over to Ikea after that, had lunch, bought "materials" for some gifts, redeemed an Eng Wah movie ticket with my points. Then went for my Art class at Kovan. Grace & Xinyi bought 2 pairs of booties from me to put their hp. Finally changed our payment mode to once every 4 lessons. Anyway, most of them back-pay me liao, so managed to collect some $$$.

Met up with Elaine, Tin Lin & Chay Lee for dinner at Heartland Mall, Sakae Sushi. Really glad to me able to meet up with old colleagues who has become friends along the way. They are all very supportive & still buy lotsa stuff from Knotty Bicsie. Thank you, ladies! :D If only Joey could join us. Joey, you must take good care of yourself wor. You've been falling sick quite often since last year. Take care!

Our conversation somehow still revolves around school. Mixed feelings. Kinda miss those times I have with the students, yet feel relief that I do not have ot handle all these anymore, also felt a little sorry for them (my colleagues)... I tried a few time to "change the topic" by introducing new topics, but somehow, after a few exchanges, they "automatically" revert back to school... & I know, if I were still with MOE, our conversation would have been 100% abt school, & worse still, I might not even be there with them for I would've been so tired by that time of the day & should be at home, stoning, by then!

Dar picked me up after tuition. He hasn't had dinner! Seems like it's happening again. He looked tired & disturbed. I know it's tough on him, but it's also very frustrating & draining to go in circles like this. Always seem to see some improvement, only to realize that we were in denial & we are back to square 1 again. What should we do???

Thursday. Rushing to complete a pair of shoes so that I can send in to uncle today for him to complete by tmr, so I can have at least 3 pairs of shoes on sale at MAAD. So a LITTLE stressed & frustrated (actually I think it's PMS). Then Mum is always trying to be helpful, yet VERY DEPENDENT. Hence, very often end up giving me more work, adding to my burden...

I know I shouldn't be feeling this way, but I can't help it when I sometimes end up having to run a few more errands! I mean, she wants to help me, I KNOW. However, why is it that she doesn't realize that by expecting me to pick her up from her place ALL THE TIME is NOT helping me at all?! I don't drive & we don't stay near each other, & I got other jobs besides Knotty Bicsie! She say's she's got housework to do so she's not doing this full-time really, but I got housework too! I just don't understand why Mum's seems so pampered nowadays. I mean I'm truly grateful to help & really, Knotty Bicsie could not have been possible without her, but I just need her to learn to be a little more independent sometimes.

Frankly, having to juggle with Mum & Dar's expectations/dependence can be very stressful. Mum always create tension verbally (unknowingly); Dar always give me emotional blackmail (unknowingly as well)... Why can't they try to see that I'm trying too? *sigh* Why is it that we always people around us for granted?